It's been almost 10 months.




I think about my baby girl all the time.




We found out from the doctor that there were some kind of bacterial infection in my uterus and the cord, and that is the cause of death.




It's hard to understand. I just don't even think about it anymore. I just think about my Bonsai. I remember her moving around and pushing me. I really miss her.




We are trying to have another baby.. not working very well. It's frustrating and upsetting. I am hoping to use this blog again to write about Bonsai, trying a second baby, and hopefully motherhood.